You know how you live your life day to day and it seems rather boring? Like groundhog day. Didn't care much for the movie mainly because it was just the same day over and over.
Some days I don't care for my life. It is so boring. Get up feed kids, take some to school, come home, clean, feed kids, put them down for a nap, clean, fetch kids, come home, feed kids some snacks, homework, cook dinner, put kids in bed, clean, sleep, repeat. It has been like that for a few years now and I must admit that as my kids get older and I am doing more things outside the home with them and without them, I feel as though I have achieved so much in this time of presumed mundanity.
In the over 7 years of being a mother and devoting and sacrificing my life for my little ones I realise it has been in this time that I have grown the most. Not only as a mother but as a wife and as me as an individual.
I have gotten to know who I am. But not only that, I have gotten to know who I am in God. How God sees me.
To be pretty much stripped of my identity while I have been everything to 5 people and so depended on for everything for so long, I had to lean on God. I had to learn to talk to Him throughout my day. To come to Him with all my needs and worries. I haven't always remembered to do this and sometimes I have gotten cross and had a tantrum and decided that I wasn't going to read my Bible or talk to God because of how I was feeling.
For a busy and tired mum it is really difficult to find the time and energy to have a quiet time alone with God to pray and read our Bible. But doing things like praying while driving the car, putting worship music on while you clean the kitchen and make beds or fold laundry, Bible apps on your phone while you breastfeed and things like this all help to put your focus on God. You might not see this time as very worthy or even glamorous but it is the most amazing job you will ever do. Mums you are leaving a legacy for generations to come. For the first 3 years of a child's life are spent with their mother, nuturing them, teaching them and growing them. It is time consuming and stretching but it is so so rewarding.
My eldest is now 7 and I can see the fruit come out of her that has been sown in her life when she was little. My second child turns 5 less than 2 weeks and my 3rd child turns 3. My baby is so close to starting to walk that I am starting to feel like I really don't want her to grow up just yet. I have gotten so used to having little children around me and in 18 months time I will have all 4 my children at pre-school or primary school for 3 days of the week.
I am excited about the new chapter of my life I am going in to. I turned 30 on Saturday and it was such a beautiful weekend and I felt so blessed. I have been looking back and seeing all the amazing and yet trying and hard times in my life and all that I have gone through but now I look ahead to the new things that this time has molded me to be and I stand amazed. I am so in awe and so in love with my Heavenly Father and all He has done, is doing and is yet to do in my life and in the lives of my family.
I am feeling strongly that I would like to take this blog to a new place and making it more. I am going to commit to writing once a week for the next while and see how that goes and maybe extending it to twice a week in the New Year if I can. I will also be moving my whole blog to something more user friendly and easier to read.
I have had so much on my heart in the last few years and it is only now that things are starting to come clear and I am being stirred up. The Holy Spirit seems to be calling me and I have to cross over into this new thing.
I want to speak into people's lives and bring them hope. I want to see people set free and changed and I want to see people equipped and on fire for what God has called them to do.
This is A Walk of Faith and Trust and I would so love it if you would join me on this journey that has been placed before me and that you will be encouraged by my testimonies and the words God gives me for you every Wednesday.
Until next Wednesday, please remember that you are worth more than the words in your head tell you you are. You matter to somebody and you are made for greatness and that greatness to exalt your Creator through all that you are.
Praise God for His awesome splendour,
Praise the Lord for He cares for the poor in spirit
and the brokenhearted.
He lifts them out of the depths
and sets them on the Rock of Salvation.
He lifts their heads and
creates a new heart within them.
He guides them and leads them
in truth and righteousness.
He never leaves nor forsakes them
and in troubled times He is forever near.
His Grace, everlasting and His love,
Stand in awe and be
For your God is Mighty
and in His might He will save
He will care for
and He will always
be there for
and near to
Be still and know
Hold on to His promises.
Stand and be Amazed.
by Tamryn de Laborde
Isaiah 61:1 “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;