Revelation 22:13 I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last.
When I heard this song it really spoke to me of who God is. He is my first and my last and my future and my past. He has always been with me, will always be with me. Everything begins with Him and everything Ends with Him.
The last few weeks have been very trying. I have had a whole lot thrown my way and it has taken a lot of fight and leaning on God to help me through. I have been determined to not let anything rob me this year of joy and of the call placed upon my life.
Lately I feel as though I am stuck on an obstacle course. The more I step out the more I need to step over what is thrown at my feet. I feel like my life is like one of my kids' rooms. To get from one end to another I have to step over 12 things.
I was praying for a young lady this week and got an image of God's hand reaching down and her hand being in His. That there will be obstacles but like a father or mother with a child He lifts us over obstacles. He cares for us and nurtures us. When we learn to walk we aren't blind-folded and left to run off in any direction only to trip and fall. God will never let you fail or fall. He holds your hand and guides you.
Stepping out has been so overwhelming and new and I feel so unprepared and ill equipped for what is set before me. I can turn around at any time and say it is too hard and I don't want to do it but it is a desire that God has placed in my heart. A desire that demands action.
Psalm 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Some think that what you desire will be given to you when you seek God but I read this as when you seek God He gives you the desires of your heart. In other words the desires of your heart are not the ones you put there but the ones God has put there.
The desire of my heart has been put in my heart by God. I would never have thought to put these things in my heart. I am a girl. On a regular basis I desire chocolate and coffee. But when I seek God I find a desire is placed in my heart for young women and those that need encouragement. I get the desire to speak and write.
I don't write too well and I do not speak that well publicly so not something I would be jumping at in my own steam.
What I do is all from the desire God has given me. And then because I desire what He has put in my heart He grants it to me with a resounding YES! 2 Corinthians 1:20 For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us.
So through all the obstacles and calls on my life and the stepping out and fighting against the unseen things I am reminded that God is great. God is mighty. He is the greatest Author. He is the First and the Last. He knows my Future and He knows my Past. He sees what I have done and He knows what I will do and He still loves me.
In all that I do and all that I am God is my all. He is everything to me and without Him holding all this together it would be a complete disaster. So I give Him all the Glory and Honour and Praise for He is my First and He is my Last, my Furture and my Past.